Troubling Dreams

Here is a Celtic Cross spread that I did for myself on Sunday, February 7, 2015. 

For about a week, I had dreamed of scrambling to put out figurative brushfires. There was so much to be done, and I was the only one to do it!


The cards I drew were:

1. Three of Cups, representing me

2. Nine of Wands, representing what's crossing me

3. Ace of Swords, representing the root of the reading

4. Three of Pentacles, representing the immediate past

5. The Magician, representing the best possible outcome

6. Justice, representing the immediate future

7. Queen of Pentacles, representing inner influences

8. Seven of Pentacles, representing outside influences

9. Strength, representing my hopes or fears, or what I will need to move forward

10. Nine of Swords, representing the likely outcome if nothing changes. 


A bit of background: I lost a well-paying job two years ago in a corporate reorganization, and have been underemployed since. The change took a toll on my health, and I have only recently experienced a return of my usual vigor. 

The dancing women of the Three of Cups represent my delight at feeling better and wanting to get out and enjoy the world. The Nine of Wands warns, however, that I haven't yet reached the mountaintop and should be prepared for more hard work. 

The Ace of Swords suggests that my thoughts of how to proceed are strong and valid. My ideas are good.

The Three of Pentacles in the immediate past probably refers to the certificate in marketing and new media that I earned from UCLA Extension a few months ago.

The Magician suggests that I do have the power to bring together the attributes of the four tarot suits—wands and swords, cups and pentacles—to make my dreams come true. I like to think that the Justice card in my immediate future means that I will get the well-paying full-time job I deserve.

The Queen of Pentacles is in pursuit of practical, tangible solutions to life's problems. The Seven of Pentacles depicts a farmer assessing the success of a past crop and deciding how to proceed with a fallow field. It seems that it's time for the dancing women of the Three of Cups to get to work. 

And indeed, the next card, Strength, suggests that my work is not done. I will need patience, determination and hard work in order to advance. 

The final card, the Nine of Swords, sometimes called the nightmare card, is probably the most direct reference to my troubling dreams, in which I so anxiously scrambled from one problem to another. The cards suggest to me that practical solutions to my difficulties are within reach, and the best way to battle the anxiety of my dreams is to get to work taking those last strides toward satisfaction.